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"It is hard to encapsulate a being, a very special being, a soul, a smile, a boy, a huge talent, a boy, a man, in however many pages. Yet I must try, for him, for myself, for you. And I hope that as I do, you will come to understand who he was, and what he meant to all those who knew him. This is the story of an extraordinary boy, with a brilliant mind, a heart of gold, and a tortured soul. It is the story of an illness, a fight to live, and a race against death. It is early for me yet, as I write this. He has been gone a short time. My heart still aches. The days seem endless. I still cry at the sound of his name. I wander into his room and can still smell his familiar smell. His words still echo in my ears. He was alive only days ago, weeks ago... so little time, and yet he's gone. It is impossible to absorb or understand. Harder still to accept." Danielle Steele "His Bright Light... The Story of Nick Traina"
"TIME"
"I spend all my time hoping
That you're going to find another way
And yer not gonna shut me up
Cuz I've got too much to say.
If you live to be happy all the time
Then you overlook what's there
And I wish I had more time
Cuz life's too short not to care.
Wasting away on detachment
You think it doesn't apply
But only when you apply yourself
Will you be able to see the lies.
Everybody will tell you something
And who knows who will make sense
But to actually admit
You don't know shit
Takes an awful lot of strength
Keep your life focused
And always do what's right...
And cherish every minutes God gives you
Don't go without a fight.
"USED TO"
"There is no point in fighting me
Cuz I've already lost
This life is but a battle
That I've already fought.
Everyday I bow my head
Surrender to myself.
I used to be strong
I used to not need help
I used to be a boy
I grew into a man
But I'm not even living
I don't know what I am.
A life that's just spent dying
Is not a life at all.
Walking through this life
And through this living hell
It really can't last much longer
I've lost all i once had.
I know it could be worse
But still it's pretty bad."
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"GNAT"
"I'm all alone.
I'm all alone.
Sky is white
The pain is bright
And I wanna get stoned.
I'm all alone.
Destiny, my destiny
Dance with me, dance with me, destiny
Destiny, my destiny
No escaping that's for me.
My mother moans, get off the phone,
She don't like my fucking tone.
Mama may have
And Papa may have
But god bless the child that's got his own
God bless the child that's got his own
I was left here all alone
Destiny, my destiny
Dance with me, dance with me, destiny
Destiny, my destiny
No escaping that's for me..."
"SPACEY"
"...I'd like to stay a secret,
Like walking in the dark,
If no one knows you, no one cares
So no one breaks your heart.
In half-closed dreams i see myself
And I'm standing on my feet
But all my time's spent sitting down.
I'm always half alseep.
This world has nothing left in it.
It died when I was born.
I used to have a purpose
But there is none to have one for..."
"HA HA HA"
"...This world is in suck disarray
It's pathetic and it's sad
So while I'm doing good
And I should be happy now
I can't seem to figure what happiness is about
And so everything will end
The same way it begins
I will die with nothing
I will never win..."
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